Sorry you are dealing with pain. I'm a few steps behind you, maybe a year or two as I figure it, so I am not yet dealing with pain. I, too, wonder where this is all going to take me before my last day on earth. But like you, I am content that I belong body and soul, in life and death, to God. He has my every moment in his hands and if he asks me to suffer...well, then I will suffer and I hope to do it well and with grace. Bless you.
I'll be praying that the red parts are no longer red!Love you