This is the Isaiah passage that God keeps promising me. He gave it to me again last Sunday, and then it was somewhere else I was reading last week, then my sister emailed it to me a couple days ago, then it was used at church this past Sunday. He’s been reiterating this promise over and over, especially over the last ten months. It’s what keeps me grounded in His reality.
1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
1. Make mental list of all minor side effects, get in speculative mental tangle about many possible causes for each side effect.
2. Decide to wait until CT scan Friday because that will tell me something.
3. Remember that CT scan Friday might not tell me anything. Most of everything that was there last time only showed up on the PET scan.
4. Worry about how disappointing it’ll be if I don’t find out what’s going on.
5. Remember that the God of the Universe will keep His promise to never leave me or forsake me.
***Repeating many times per day or hour, shuffling order of numbers 1-4, shufflling worries and side effects... Answer is always number 5.
These are two songs that God has used to bring incredible peace and healing to my troubled self over the last month or so:
Here are the lyrics for the second song, the lyrics are awesome:
"Be Still, My Soul"
by Catharina von Schlegel, 1697-?
1. Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
2. Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul; the waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.
3. Be still, my soul, though dearest friends depart
And all is darkened in the vale of tears;
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrows and thy fears.
Be still, my soul; thy Jesus can repay
From His own fulness all He takes away.
4. Be still, my soul; the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul; when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.